Okay Seriously Now...

Ever had one of those days? A nut kicking, ass beating, repeated punch in the head kind of day?

Welcome to my world. That's how it's bee for the last two weeks for me.

Work is an incredible grind, ranging from tense to downright hostile, on a good day that is. My two co-workers are either drunk, hungover or getting drunk, the owner of the company can't won't see it. We aren't shipping orders & when we do we totally fuck them up.

 I'm still recovering from breaking a collar bone (not recommended),  my Dermatologist - Oncologist diagnosed me with a Melanoma & a couple of BCC's just for good measure. The treatment is making me feel like crap, my roomie "get's a headache" if I smoke pot for the nauseousness and as an added treat I need to have surgery on my right hand of Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. Just lovely. I'm get tons of support from my friends and family... my sister complained about her cold when I told her about the Chemo, my room-mate and alleged best friend is complaining cause I'm "grumpy" & irritable.  NO SHIT!!! I'm sick, I'm in pain and he's laying around doing sweet fuck all, expecting me to feed him & do all the day to day stuff & run his errands "cause my car isn't working" (it needs a new muffler).  When I mention it to him he says I'm being mean & picking on him???

 He's also begun thinking it's his God given right to eat what ever I bring into the house. I'm not mean or cheap but if I bring something home to eat, it's generally cause I like it and would very much like to have some. Don't eat it all and not replace it, then ask me if I bough more???  Get a job, get off unemployment insurance and stop sponging off me.

Yep so...

Ahhhh another lovely day in my world! Skin cancer is back in a few places. Have a melanoma on one spot on my face & a couple of BCC's as well. Could be worse, it can always be worse. Using my chemo cream like a good little boy, and got my first Chemo injection yesterday. Spent today sleeping & being violently ill, well at least I'll lose a few pounds. Harley my ever present cat hung out with me all day trying to make me feel better, I'm glad I rescued him more so every day. He's an amazing little guy and I'd be fucked without him.  My boss gave me more great news yesterday, the owner of our company has made all his sales people (that would include me) contractual workers, on a month to month basis. It's legal, but sleazy. Rotten old bastard that he is. I'm trying to look on the positive side of this but it can be hard. On the plus side I'm not dying & I'll lose weight and maybe get to look for a new job!!! Wooo & hoooo!!! Gotta love my life.

Haven't blogged in awhile.

So I haven't blogged in awhile. Not sure why really. Bored or boring maybe? I guess I could make excuses but like most of excuses they would be bullshit. I continue to be me despite trying really hard not to be. I like myself but there's alot I want to change, in fact in trying to change but it's not always easy. I wish I had more to say but really I don't. The usual stuff, things annoying me, things making me smile, and of course the day to day crap I get to deal with. Lately the pain in my legs has been less and I've even managed to get my leg brace on for a couple of days in a row!!! Ya me!!! It's the little things like that, keeping me out of "a chair". Fuck yeah!!!