There's this crush I have.

I'm kind of an internet junkie, I belong to a bunch of social networking sights and I'm active on a bunch of them. I met this young woman, girl really who's 17 which I'm not. I'm close to 50, and yes I know it's wrong. We talk on line, send each other notes and what not. Of course we ended up having major crushes on each other. As I said I know it's wrong on so, very many levels. Truthfully I don't care. I know nothing will ever come of it. I'm not going to meet her or anything like that. The worst thing is some passionate emailing. Funny thing is she's amazing. Smart, funny, witty, sensual, beautiful and I'm happy with her. Of course I have this nagging doubt in the back of my mind telling me it's wrong and I should stop it. I probably won't. I might be rationalizing it, but I don't believe I'm hurting her.

I'm a lot of things to a lot of people.

I'm a lot of things to a lot of people. Friend, lover, brother, uncle, scout leader, nemesis, bullshit artist, son, but mostly I'm just me. Doesn't sound like much & believe me it's not, but in the grand scheme of things I really don't care. I'm tired of being some of the things I mentioned and I want to be better at some of the other things I mentioned. Just not sure which one's are which right now. Matter of priorities I guess, maybe wants. Maybe needs. Regardless I'm writing this for me and only me. I guess for some kind of therapy god knows I need it.